Only one week and one day until we get to see our babies. So far, I'm tired and maybe recently hormonal. I've been very emotional today and yesterday just due to fear. It's so hard having no control over what happens, other than taking the best care of myself I can. Food still isn't sounding… Continue reading 5 weeks
Category: life
Feelings
I said to Justin last week that if I wasn't pregnant, we should do some blood testing for the reason I'm so tired. I'm elated that I'm pregnant and it makes me feel so much better about myself for being tired. I'm not being lazy, my body is working on creating humans, so it's all… Continue reading Feelings
Excursions and Embryos
Hello and welcome to the first blog of the rest of your life! It's Wednesday and this waiting is killing me! I'm not wishing away time, by any means, but goodness, it's not a pleasant wait. It's hard not to "symptom spot" as my friend called it, but I'm avoiding it as much as I… Continue reading Excursions and Embryos
I believe in the sand beneath my toes…
This should just be called: Where were you when you learned about Crystal Meth? I had just tuned 10 (young for my grade) and was SUPER into 90s alternative, thanks to my older brother (and my impeccable musical taste). I had a knack (or an obsessive hobby) for memorizing lyrics of songs and always enjoyed… Continue reading I believe in the sand beneath my toes…
My Special Kind of Crazy
Everyone has their quirks and is super specifically them. The exception to this are people who don't embrace their personalities and I feel sad for that. I enjoy people, no matter how different they are from me. So, by the previous assertion, I'm "super specifically myself." And that, I am. Love languages are slightly enthralling… Continue reading My Special Kind of Crazy
Life. It goes on…. (5/13)
Keep going. Keep pushing. Keep striving to be better than you are. Every day I wake up, I give myself a little pep talk. Each day, I get the opportunity to have the best day of my life. I can be a better wife, daughter, sister, friend, and leader. Some days are filled with self-doubt… Continue reading Life. It goes on…. (5/13)
Navigating through with a waning moon (May 10, I think)
Aching. Constantly. Blinking back tears. Practicing my responses. How are you? I can’t sell I’m great under the judgmental stares, so I decide on fine. I’m fine! Changing the subject to talk about them. People love to talk about themselves and it usually is bearable from there. How does this get better? Time, I suppose,… Continue reading Navigating through with a waning moon (May 10, I think)
Disclaimer!
I'm going to back post some things. I'm fine. And not in the vapidly hollow sense that I speak of in one of the posts I'm going to publish. I try to wait to publish negative posts until I've at least slightly gotten a grip so that no one freaks out. Why publish at all,… Continue reading Disclaimer!
The Waiting Game
Waiting has never been my strong suit. So, I've got two more sleeps until my test and man, it's tough. I don't feel pregnant. I'm not "giving up hope" or "not putting enough positive energy into it" or whatever else, but I feel fairly confident that I'm not pregnant and there is nothing hope or… Continue reading The Waiting Game
Anniversaries: the chosen birthdays
I've always had a knack for dates. Whenever I believe something important is happening, I take a mental picture of that moment. That mind photo - more often than not - is time stamped. Anniversaries are very important to me. They commemorate a time when you purposefully chose to do something, to enter a new… Continue reading Anniversaries: the chosen birthdays
Adventures with the Quad Squad 