It feels like as soon as I wrote the post a couple days ago, the universe was like... "wait, just one second...." I started spotting again (the first time since quitting suppositories with the exception of after my appointment) yesterday morning.  It continued throughout the day, but I wasn't specifically worried. Then, last night, it… Continue reading Never get too comfortable

And, the spotting or whatever is back. It is so scary and impossible to literally not want to run home and hide in a dark room. Logically, I know that I can't stop the bleeding, no matter what I do, so going home does nothing. It just scares me because today was a particularly stressful… Continue reading And…it’s back

More nervous than I've been yet for my third egg retrieval. Hoping third time is the charm!

Well, it's been a month since my failed transfer and we're starting the prep for my June's new IVF cycle. It will hopefully be the third successful egg retrieval and fifth attempt. It will be a long agonist protocol which is similar to January's (the most successful). My agonist injections have begun and I'm almost… Continue reading One month post-transfer

Today's appointment wasn't great.  There are still several follicles, but not all of them are growing at the same speed and they aren't confident that three of them will even be mature. So, they pretty much left it up to us as to if we want to proceed to retrieval. This cycle, I've spent more… Continue reading Positivity > Science?

Yesterday, I went to the doctor at 9:45. The time prior went surprisingly quickly for which I was very thankful! I got there and performed my normal routine. V greets me and we discuss our plans for the day while I pay. You can get your receipt printed or emailed, so that's convenient! Her lipstick… Continue reading I have no creative title ideas!

One thing about this experience is that if certainly does allow you to play many roles: doctor, nurse, bartender, counselor, chemist, and/or drug maker. You have to be imaginative and create your own narrative, but it adds a little flair to an otherwise stressful time. Last night's shot took 10 minutes to mix up and… Continue reading Chemist or drug lab proprietor?

I woke up this morning at the late hour of 4:15 or so and could not go back to sleep. Normally, I'd go into work, but since my appointment was early this morning, I browsed my phone while listening to the cacophony of J and Zeppelin's snores.  Something about this process is that it is… Continue reading Buckle up, it’s a long one.

Welcome to today. Hi. I'm Annie and I cried 9 times. Today was an interesting day. I woke up to a blanket of 1 inch of snow. I had an appointment at 7:15 am, so I left my house promptly at 6:50 to allow myself enough time. And then, the anger started.... I start driving… Continue reading Oil and the slipperiness of emotions.