Keep going. Keep pushing. Keep striving to be better than you are. Every day I wake up, I give myself a little pep talk. Each day, I get the opportunity to have the best day of my life. I can be a better wife, daughter, sister, friend, and leader. Some days are filled with self-doubt… Continue reading Life. It goes on…. (5/13)
Navigating through with a waning moon (May 10, I think)
Aching. Constantly. Blinking back tears. Practicing my responses. How are you? I can’t sell I’m great under the judgmental stares, so I decide on fine. I’m fine! Changing the subject to talk about them. People love to talk about themselves and it usually is bearable from there. How does this get better? Time, I suppose,… Continue reading Navigating through with a waning moon (May 10, I think)
Disclaimer!
I'm going to back post some things. I'm fine. And not in the vapidly hollow sense that I speak of in one of the posts I'm going to publish. I try to wait to publish negative posts until I've at least slightly gotten a grip so that no one freaks out. Why publish at all,… Continue reading Disclaimer!
Fix You
For those of you who are well-versed in my musical taste, you're well aware that I generally despise Coldplay. I find Chris Martin to be unbearable and their music to be unoriginally maudlin. I'll allow "Fix You" to be the exception. Unfortunately, I'm no longer pregnant. I went in early on Thursday, anxiously awaiting what… Continue reading Fix You
The Waiting Game
Waiting has never been my strong suit. So, I've got two more sleeps until my test and man, it's tough. I don't feel pregnant. I'm not "giving up hope" or "not putting enough positive energy into it" or whatever else, but I feel fairly confident that I'm not pregnant and there is nothing hope or… Continue reading The Waiting Game
Homecoming (FET)
Yesterday, I went to work until 12, then went to acupuncture at 2. Acupuncture was not as relaxing as it normally was simply due to the anticipation of what was to come. After acupuncture, I chugged 48 oz of water and met J at home to go to our transfer. The 48 oz of water… Continue reading Homecoming (FET)
Salsa
Hy-Vee, like most grocery stores, will add something to their inventory if you request it incessantly enough. For the first two years I was back in Columbia, Hy-Vee refused to stock a KC staple of Margarita's salsa. So, my parents would bring to me or I'd stock up when I was visiting. Finally, they started… Continue reading Salsa
It’s the final countdown…
I'm pretty sure I had a different title picked out yesterday and it felt more inventive. Perhaps I'll think of it in a bit. Yesterday, at 7:45 AM sharp (well, who are we kidding, I was there 15 minutes prior), I went in to the doctor. I read a magazine and caught up on some… Continue reading It’s the final countdown…
Anniversaries: the chosen birthdays
I've always had a knack for dates. Whenever I believe something important is happening, I take a mental picture of that moment. That mind photo - more often than not - is time stamped. Anniversaries are very important to me. They commemorate a time when you purposefully chose to do something, to enter a new… Continue reading Anniversaries: the chosen birthdays
C-Note
Happy 100th blog post to me! Spoiler alert: tomorrow is my one year anniversary of the blog. Hopefully, I'll have good news to report. Tomorrow is my check to see if my lining is cooperating for a 4/24 transfer. We are hopeful that it will be our month to get pregnant. The meds have been… Continue reading C-Note
Adventures with the Quad Squad 